Out of left field, it hits you. You’re in pain. You’re stressed. Going about normal, mundane tasks takes a toll on you. You have to give yourself a pep talk just to make it out the door in the morning. It becomes the norm to force a smile and have pleasant conversation with people. Hiding the internal pain to keep a put-together appearance.
How did it happen? When did life swallow you whole? Why are you so consumed with convincing yourself and the outside world that you’re okay?
We are so consumed by a world where asking for help, or taking a pause, means that you’re throwing the towel in and admitting defeat. The thought of being vulnerable and showing others your struggle is almost more of a burden than the stress itself. When the did it become not okay to ask for help? To admit you’re in over your head?
The stress of life coupled with mental and physical anxiety about presenting yourself that you’re doing just fine can be unbearable. Your days yo-yo between very low and extremely high energy, and everything in between. You work so hard at appearing happy that your body shuts down. You go from 100-0 real fast.
You hang on to the pain. To the stress. Fighting it. Trying to knock yourself out of it without ever truly being in it.
It’s okay to not be okay.
Take a step back from everything. Really and truly. Give yourself a break from putting on a smiling face. A break from the stress and anxiety that’s consuming you. Admit that you’re not okay and take the time to understand and deal with it. Let yourself be not okay for awhile. It’s not selfish, you are not a failure, you are a human.
You are fully entitled to bad days. To bad weeks. Heck, even bad months. The entitlement stops when you don’t try and do something for yourself. When you’re not willing to overcome it.
I urge you to take a deep breathe and a step back next time you feel like you’re doggy paddling to stay afloat. For the sake of your health and for the people around you, please, take a moment for you. It’s okay to not be okay. Take the time to be okay again and move forward with life truly being okay and not pretending.